How it Feels to be Transgender

The boy runs

trying to escape the obstacles in my head

The girl in the pretty pink dress

and waterfalls on her face

chases him through obstacles of diamonds and skate boards

She catches his hand

and pulls him to a corner

“I’m sorry”

She locks him in a cage

He belts out a long cry for help

as the pink flowers fall

on the oceans of his eyelids

After a while,

he finds a key

and unlocks the cage

he feels like he’s never felt before

but he still feels trapped

He runs to the end of the maze

dodging the unspeakable

When he gets to the end

he finds the loophole

The boy finds a tiny canoe and paddle

he starts a slow journey

through my body

and to my heart

Eventually he finds my heart

the giant red beating blob

He begins to jab and slap it

with the canoeing paddle

he stops for long breaks

but every now and then he sees the need to start again

After a long period of time,

a volcano erupts inside him

and ocean crashes and causes tidal waves surrounding him

His emotions form a storm cloud

of screaming ballerinas

he passes out

When he awakes

his mind is a blank sheet of paper

his emotions are dried ditches

he’s fed up

He makes his way to the canoe

he paddles his way up the giant hill with giant swords

flying from every direction

He sees a light,

it’s my mouth!

He furiously pushes his way up

struggling with every move

Finally after six years

he’s made it

he’s taken control

he is himself