"How it starts"

your intuition begins composing,
when destruction confuses decision.
distracting it from simple solutions.
making it lost from finding conclusion. bringing urgency to start choosing,
leaving it to panic to determine logic. 
anticipating the equation of 50/50  pretending pleasure to be equivalent to reducing pressure, and measuring reflex before discovering there was no terror.
It was conscious resisting a feeling created by tampered emotions that keep what helps decide instantly. 
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