HURTING MY CHILDREN

MY ABSENCE HAS CAUSED MY DAUGHTERS PAIN...
A SILENT BEAST WHICH CAN NOT BE TAMED...
HER WORDS ARE SHORT BUT HER ANGER IS VICIOUS...
HER UNSPOKEN WORDS HAVE NO ONE TO LISTEN...
MY SON IS IN SEARCH OF ME...
SHARING MY NAME BUT HE DOES NOT KNOW ME...
HE ASKS FOR DADDY BUT NO ONE APPEARS...
WONDERING IF I LOVE HIM HAS ME IN DROWNING TEARS...
THEY BOTH ARE MY HEART...
MY BAD DECISIONS BROUGHT US APART...
I PRAY THEY DO NOT START TO RESENT ME...
BIRTH HATE IN THEIR HEARTS AND MOVE AGAINST ME...
I STILL HAVE NOT FORGAVE MYSELF...
TAKING THEM THROUGH THE SAME CYCLE AS MYSELF...
I WANTED TO BE BETTER THAN MY DAD...
TO GIVE THEM THE LOVE AND ATTENTION I NEVER HAD...
BUT I SEE I HAVE FOLLOWED IN HIS FOOTSTEPS...
GIVING MY CHILDREN PHYSICAL AND EMOTIONAL NEGLECT...
I AM SORRY DEARLY...
AND HOPE THEY CAN FORGIVE ME...
I NEED FOR THEM TO KNOW MY LOVE IS TRUE...
THAT THIS EXPERIENCE WILL NEVER AGAIN BE VIEWED...
I WANT THEM TO LOOK INTO MY EYES AND SEE...
THAT I NEED THEM JUST AS MUCH AS THEY NEED ME...