I Am Still
I worked so hard for them so they did not ,surely i deserve a second thought
When they make fun of me and my illness on social media for all to see where is the respect they once held for me
I know an informed choice is no longer given but what happened to even asking my permission
I sit here like a child although my Alzheimer's is only mildÂ
They think i don't see what they're doing to me but i clearly see that they are taking advantage of whats happened to me
Why cant they show some compassion can they not see the affect this is having on me
Their selfishness and greed i never expected throughout their childhood they were always protected
The lies and deceit why all i ever done for them was tryÂ
Even down to my last wishes all rearranged why cant they just leave my things unchanged
What part of me have they left to control all i have left now is my soul
Its sometimes easier just to stay mute there's nothing left they haven't took
If i need something i have to ask so i just try my best to make things last
They look and talk to me like i am stupid did they forget i was the one that helped them to walk
Now i need them more than ever my brain i cant trust reversed roles but where are they now when i get too cold
Where my voice was respected it is now just rejected
I have sealed my own fate and now its to late
Why oh why i often say did yous all turn out this way why do i not get a say and everything i had or have gets taken awayÂ
I wish that i could turn back time to when your mum was here and things were fineÂ
Even now i still protect when people say the words informal abuse and neglect
I never asked for this either the man you call guy but once you called Father
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Beautiful! I just love this piece
Keep writing and encouraging others.
And never give up
Thank you much appreciated this is for Alzheimer's a powerful portrait of my interpretation of feelings and reality of people suffering from the disease
You are so welcome.
Absolutely love this â¤ď¸ Keep writing your poems! You have a true talent Xx
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9/26/2017.Oh how your poem touched my heart.You know Jesus in Heaven above loves and He will take of you and your bullies.
You don't have to worry my dear&I'm sharing some rinky dink advice from lessons I didn't learn myself.I have bullies/the whole Church has bullies because we follow Christ.I don't have Altzheimer's but I do understand everything you wrote in that poem my dear.
I have a Brain Tumor history and til this very day right before I started posting on here a bully attack me using mind games by asking me repeated questions over and over and she knew of another illness I am not to share on here.
I thought applying for housing would be safe,but she thought that she could attack my eyesight,feelings,and memory like many have my whole life and now.
I've shared with other because I've workd with Altzheimer's/Dementia patients.The Nurse at training class for care stated,"Be careful how you treat them because they have spirits to and can tell when they're being mistreated."I say this to say that God has a specific plan for all His creation including you.He gave you the gift of poetry knowing what your imperfections including you health are.
I might be wrong,but bullies have insecurities and secrects that don't want no body to know.The lash out&wanna be in control and are living their lives in fear of the Lord Almighty God heaven when only He's in control.Remember it's not you,it's not them,but it's a spiritual battle that live fighting against our God!I pray that he help you to ignore and forgive those punks.Don't worry one 2nd about punks cuz while ya worryin,they've moved on to there next victim which you are not you here me.I know what I'm writing a little too much,but if it saves a life-what the heck!.
I don't know ya,but love you&if my God could help with the same suffering,He'll help you too.I see big things happen for my dear you're gonna soar right in front of your bullies.Don't cuz God's got you in the palm of your hands my dear?ââŁ??
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This is wonderful it's not letting me vote x