I AM STILL HERE

Someone please explain
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I Feel like the a modern dead person walking
Death and dying is staring me in the face
No one believes me that my body is breaking down
I do not want the hospital
No offense they have weapons I know by name
If you think I need to be shot
Give me time I'm sure I will get it right
I'm not scared, I just want to see where this road goes
But, I surely thought I'd be traveling by now
I am in no hurry
It's just a lot of stop and go.