I Can't Breathe

I can't breathe
No matter how much I try I can't find a simple word to get out
Every time I breathe I feel pain....

Pain and pain and pain

When I don't breathe I feel nothing
Nothing as if I'm a cinder block trying to collapse...

Seeing others breathe make me jealous..

I want to breathe
...
I can't...

Every time I try I cry
I cry and sob till my heartbeat is in awe

I can't do it
I can't
My words are nothing my voice is at peak where no one can hear me
I can't breathe....

And that's ok
I'm ok
Can you breathe too?
Or is it just my mind playing tricks like it always does
...

Why can't I breathe?
...

I want to breathe..
...

Maybe one day I will
Maybe one day I won't
For now all I can do is sit awoke

Awoke for a while, until my breathing stops
And I sit there quietly until I can't be spoke