I did it my way

I AM up and I AM down to the side and to the side,
I AM struggling here do I give in last minute  and hide.
I have seen it all and felt a lot  less fear than this,
Do I let everyone down and give this one a miss?
I feel like I am going to be sick scared incase I let yous down,
If it was just me I would be hiding under tammy instead diamond crown.
If only you could be by my side as I don't think I can go on my own,
Side by side both us heading to claim the right to the thrown.
U give me strength some how and knowing its for the better good,
And the simpe fact when it comes to my kids I will do everything I could.
I know they will have my back but will you go where ever I go,
Because if u will I will sprint to the end I hate this being slow.