I Don't Care Anymore
The razor blade helps me feel not numb
I donβt even want to be in the future to see what Iβve become
You said youβre trying to help me
But all this βhelpβ is going to make me scream
When I pick up that razor blade all I think about is ending my life
Even when Iβm holding scissors or a knife
When I see the blood come out I feel better
But then my thoughts of the goodbye letter
Do you guys even care if I pick up the razor blade?
You see the blood and scream at me and come to my aid
This razor blade was with me when you were not
Do you even care for me I forgot?
You guys never saw my pain and scars till it was too late
This will now be my fate
Now all of you are sorry for me with all this pain
But you are also to blame
My trust is something that you will probably never get
All your words are an empty threat
You wonder why I despise you
Do you see the shit you have put me through?
Now you decided to care when somebody pointed it out
Β Canβt you see all I have is doubt?
Itβs too late to save me from this hell
So now is it okay to say my farewell?
The future will just get worse and worse
This pain is now my curse
You all say it will get better some day
I just want to get away
These pills donβt even do a damn thing
Hurt, regret, worry, grief, etc... Is all I will ever bring
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Wow very emotional I love it xΒ
Goshhhh. You remind of someone who I miss so much. It doesn't end like this unless you want it to. I'm young, I'm 18, but I tell you that I WISH I met a girl like you, because all of these other girls are so shallow, plastic, mechanized. Your different and I HAVE NO DOUBT, that if any one messes with you for excludes you, (loner status) its those kinds of shallow, empty people. Nature tends to strangle out things that are different, or better. Well, I think that your beautiful emotional works have captivated me. I've got something like a poetic crush on you :/ You say so many of the things I want to say but I'm too shy or scared to say, so I clothe it all in analogies and metaphors, but you are so honest. I 'm reeaaally hoping things get a little nicer or you and remember, all the great poets, thinkers, rolutionaries, world leader, at one point felt this way. (Most anyhow, that come to mind right now)
Your writing is so very good sweety for someone so young, I`m feeling really so very proud of you and you should feel very proud of yourself and your Mum must simply be beaming with pride. I feel sure when you eventually get away from these horrible people who are hurting you and start to put all this behind you as I know you WILL DO IT sweety, I`m very confident that you will do it, you can be sure of that, because you are an intelligent and emotionally very strong young lady and a very beautiful young soul you are also a good person with a big heart. You will be a success at whatever you choose to do in life for a career. What would you like to do when you leave collage?
I`m afraid everyone goes through awfull pain at some time in their lives, sadly there are horrible people in the world. But good and loving people far outway the bad, will you try to remember that please.
Say to yourself each morning in the mirror that you are a talented and loving good person and you deserve to be happy and have a fulfilling life. Please stay strong and if they continue to treat you badly try to find an adult to talk to, maybe a councillor at school, I`m sure they would help you, but you need to be brave, as I know you are and tell them what is going on.
The people who dish out these terrible things to people and who enjoy seeing them suffer, they are the ones who are the losers and unless they eventually develop some empathy for others and learn to treat people with respect, they will always be the losers honey.
Be proud of your writing and try to stay away from the people who have hurt you. Eventually when they see that they are being ignored they will go away.
Love George xx