I Dont Know

How dare I let them have pathetic choices
Some people think antidepressants are awesome.
But for me they don't work at all.
When I take them, I melt to the floor.
My views on life are just awful.
You abuse lies, I dont.
I get amused from the torture.
When...
Time flies, its cause im caged in a prison.
Filled with rage, enslaved in the beginning.
Every day is the same.
Its so amazing that it isn't.
School is so fucking useless with hate and pain mixed in it.
Girlfriend hardly turns up.
I feel her love has been fake to begin with.
False hope is non-existant.
I hope for more pain, so it just listens.
I have no control for my sane when it can detonate within minutes.
Flames elevate in the distance.
While I need help as I lay, waiting for assistance.