I forget to forget

~~I despise him with a passion yet his smile touched my soul like no other.
I’m sick of that quick pain race across my chest,
So fast the sharp feeling is over within seconds when he enters my thoughts.
I cannot forget. I forget to forget him.
I forget to let him go.
Even though he doesn’t exist in my life, he exists in my soul.
I feel him inside me. I feel him in my dreams.
I can never wake to see him touching me. I run out of time to tell him I love him.
Now, he’s gone.