Poem -

I Have Alzheimer's...

I Have Alzheimer's...

I'm looking for a movie to replay,
A memory that I lived, the other day,
I can't seem to remember,
Though I remember my wife Heather,
She's still on the middle shelf of my mind,
There's gaps, where I want to relive,
I get confused and struggle to breathe,
My son told me, that he came yesterday,
I look at him, sometimes I forget his name,
I'm sure it's John,
Or is it Bob?
No, I remember I had a dog named that,
Yeah, John,
I'm sure?
I'm looking for a record, to play the soundtrack of my life,
I'm staring at a photograph of this woman, I'm sure she's my wife,
I can't remember the wedding bells nor our first dance,
Did I get married?
Did this lovely lady, even give this fool a chance?
I've got my ring on, I must've had that wonderful day, 
Why can't I remember?
Everyday, I feel an aching pain,
I'm looking for a book, to read about the days of happiness,
There's too many missing, all the titles are filled with sadness,
I've got medals, from when I used to be a soldier, 
I can still hear myself yelling, my name and number,
It's strange how this is engraved, but I forget about my son James,
He rang me up this afternoon, I'm not even sure if that was his name!
I'm looking for a brand new home, somewhere safe to stay,
I'm leaving doors open, I even forget when to wash and have a shave,
I ring the police three times a night, I'm just wondering about my loving wife,
I know, I can't live alone, day or night,
I know I forget, but I value my life,
So please,
If you see me,
I've made movies,
I've created music,
I've written pages throughout time,
Just care for me and give me a smile,
Remember, as I will forget,
I'm not one those "old timers" 
I'm just a man with Alzheimer's... 

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Gerard McGowan

Oh my god Wayne, this is an amazing powerful and sad poem, it cuts deep into what Alzheimer's is, my dad recently got a Parkinson's diagnosis, I know what can follow, I'm afraid to think about it, my nanny died with Alzheimer's.

Great write Wayne.

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Wayne Stubbs

Wow! Thank you very much, I wish you all well, be positive, it's a horrible disease, robs people of their life they have lived, hope he gets the best care available 👍💜

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