I ll make my own jam

He told me hes sorry, I think this time he means it. If i lose this weight, fix up my hair, learn to keep my month shut, just you wait, he ll care.

Its not that bad, some ice on it and wait and see, couple of days and I ll be right again

Anyway, ill change him, we just need some time. A house in the country, maybe a child.

He ll love us and protect us, and come home each night to me

He told me hes sorry, just wait and see

If i was nt ugly, fat and useless, well he would nt have to look elsewhere , he d be here beside me and care.

I just need to keep quite, make him his tea, a beer now and again would nt hurt, ya he ll learn to love me

I ll pick out the colours now for the home that we ll have, flowers in the garden, ya some roses and even a tree. A swing for junior, a dog, oh and berries to make jam. I ll make him love me, i know i can

I just need to change, to be what he wants me to be

Not fat and ugly, pretty as can be

Ya we ll live in our house in the country and ill make jam

He ll love us and protect us, and ill be pretty as i can

Inside slowly dieing, screaming to be free

In our house in the country, flowers in the garden, roses and a tree, some berries to make jam, junior our dog and me.

I could nt ever leave him, where would i go?

That would be impossible, no hes my man

I ll fix up my hair, i know that i can, ill make him love me just wait and see

Inside im dieing, screaming to be free

Tears flow as i fix up my hair, ill make him love me, i know that i can

We ll live in the country, and ill make jam

If only i had a listening ear, someone to believe me, help me be who i am

NO.. i cant leave him, he is what i am

Turned sideways to the mirror, hes right, im just fat

One day we ll live in the country, a swing for junior, a dog oh and maybe a cat

I ll lose this weight and be pretty as i can, he ll learn to love me 

and i ll make jam

Inside im screaming louder each day, i need to be me, to be free.

I ll survive on my own, i know that i can, i have to protect junior, to be who i am

My dream of our home in the country, flowers in the garden, my very own tree, junior playing on a swing, a cat and a dog, berries that ive grown and ill make jam

With out him, ill find my dream, I am who i am

I know i am strong

I dont need him to help me make Jam.