I Wish

I wish I made people happy.
I wish I didn't disappoint.
I wish I could be a better friend.
I wish I could be a better daughter.
I wish I could be a better girlfriend.
I wish I could be a better person.
I wish when someone thinks of me, a smile would appear on their face.
I wish.

I wish I was better in school.
I wish I didn't procrastinate.
I wish I could concentrate better.
I wish I had a hidden ability.
I wish the only thing hidden on me wasn't hid by fat rolls.
I wish that I loved myself.
I wish.

I wish that my depression will go away.
I wish my anxiety would stop.
I wish my stomach would stop churning into knots.
I wish my fingers would stay away from my arm.
I wish that I don't have to deal with scares on my arms.
I wish.

I wish I didn't cower in fear when a man walks up to me.
I wish I didn't have to be the one to protect myself.
I wish that I didn't have to worry about a man touching me when I walk pass.
I wish this "you're a guy, it doesn't matter" would stop.
I wish.

I wish women would stop beating up other women.
I wish I didn't have to walk faster past that group of women whispering awful things under their breath.
I wish women accepted each other.
I wish.

I wish people could accept ALL different types of people.
I wish there was peace.
I wish.

I wish we lived in a perfect world.
I wish.

But....

I can't complain though right?
I am a white woman living in America.
I have a roof over my head.
I have food available to me.
I have water available to me.
I got life made.
To that, I say you're absolutely... right.

All I hear is people saying to me, "others have it so much worse, quit bitching!
I'm tired of it.
Why can't we have our moments?
We, as women, are told to be emotionally strong but how can we?
We live in a world constantly shaming women for ANYTHING.
How can we be strong when we are constantly being abused.