I Would
If I could climb over the railings and go close to the edge and jump off a bridge    I would...
If I had the guts to slash my throat
And grab my neck as I gasp for air while I try to close it shutÂ
I would...
If I could drown myself in my painÂ
literally hurt myself and drown myself as I try to stuff my face to close the drainÂ
Maybe it would suck my nose stuck so i have no choice but to stay remainedÂ
I would...
And if I found a random gun and just happen to have the bullets I'd load them and pull the trigger until there's scatters of my brainÂ
I would...
If I could get some type of rope to tie my neck up on the ceiling as I jump from my chair and hang up all my feelings
I would...
And when I get my hands on pillsÂ
I'd shove them all in my mouth and even though I start to gag I still continue to swallowÂ
There's no such thing as tomorrowÂ
I'll forever choke on my sorrowÂ
I would...Â
So close to losing my grip right nowÂ
You'd think I would attempt by nowÂ
If I didn't hope for changeÂ
I would . . .
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Hey She'Ree!!.........this was a scary read......... compelling as hell though........... but I finally began breathing better when I read those closing lines......... if this is a true write then I'd just like to say you'll be in my prayers tonight ~ because this was truly moving............ I was so glad to read that you were hoping for change in your life............. you have a gift for expressing yourself with words my friend.......... keep writing............ let time help with the healing............ love to you and yours.............T xo
Thank you so much <3Â