If I Ache...

If I ache next to your bed, believe me, it's nothing that you've said
If I ache when I'm alone, trust me, it's everything you've done
If I ache when I hear your song, it's because I can't believe you're gone
If I ache over your old tattered shirt, I love you, it's just I'm still full of hurt 

With a room full of wanted clothes, wishing that you could just walk through the door 
Sitting staring at an empty wardrobe, reminiscing the walks in the park, wanting just one more 
The silence grows, but with the echo of your voice that starts a tear
As rivers flow, I'm drowning slowly my love, wanting you still here

If I ache doing the dishes looking out the window, it's because I see your smile in that awful garden gnome 
If I ache reading the t.v. times, it's because I have the remote now and watching the t.v. on my own
If I ache lying in bed, its because it's so cold without you
If I ache every day, it's because I'm not ready for something new 

I wasn't expecting this kind of darkness to wash over me so soon 
I thought we had time, I thought I still had your voice
You were the only one in my life that made me feel I wouldn't lose 
I wish we were still young lovers who lived with choice

I'll give your bagged clothes to charity tomorrow
For now, the story read...
I sprinkle these ashes with the deepest of sorrow 
You were my first, I'll dream of you on my pillow 
Tears dripping on the pages of your favourite book 
If I ache tonight, it's because I can't believe my love was took
If I ache...