I'm Broken

I'm tired of it,
Tired of it all.
I don't want to cry anymore.
I don't want to feel this pain.
You were the one to make me smile,
Make me laugh,
Make me love.
You were my light at the end of the tunnel,
My reason to live.
Call me foolish because we are so young,
But this is true love.

You are my drug, my heroine.
Without you I feel nothing.
With you I feel alive, like I can do anything,
You are the one who brightened even my darkest days,
You changed me, turned me into someone better.
I was happy, I wanted to live.

You are the one who shattered me like glass.
You are the one who has broken me.
And everyone is trying to put me back together.
But it won't work,
It isn't working.
I can't breathe,
I don't eat,
I stay up all night crying for months and months.
You know this.
I'm forcing a smile so no-one knows.
You know this.

I'm not a person anymore
I'm an empty shell.
The only time I feel is when I cry.
This pain is unbearable,
I can't live like this.
You don't understand it,
So stop saying "I'm sorry"!
You don't understand it!

But it is okay.
You have her now.
You will fall too quickly like always.
This time it won't be real.
She will hurt you.
This isn't jealousy, my love,
This is the truth, just like it happened before.

But I am just the jealous, pathetic ex girlfriend.
I am but the "friend", nothing more.
But why do you send mixed signals all the time?
But I guess I am making this up,
Seeing things that aren't there.

You have her now.
You don't need me.
So stop making me fall in love with you all over again.
Just stop.