I'm closer to heaven...

I broke down today,
Supportive words, the same,
Still,
A crying wreck,
My heart aches,
In my pocket, was my smile,
He said, it's my turn to hide,
It's time to use your mind,
I might come out tonight,
If you see your wife.

I'm closer to heaven,
Don't make me wait,
I live for my smile,
It let's me know I'm still alive,
If I don't have that, the stairs I'll climb.

The park bench soaked in fine rain,
Clouds, reminds me of your warm embrace,
Just one silkened kiss, to feel your cold nose,
In this misty weather, I still believe I see your wandering soul,
If, for once more I could lightly stroke your softened pink cheek,
In this churchyard, rose petals dripping with pain, I'm weak.

She whispered to me that evening, don't come with me, live your life,
I can't speak out loud, salted tears have stolen my once touched smile,
I decorate your stone with your favourite flowers, with a piece of you in my pocket,
I keep crying, for I still carry around your beautiful face in my heart shaped locket.

I'm closer to heaven,
Don't make me wait,
I live for my smile,
It lets me know I'm still alive,
If I don't have that, the stairs I'll climb.

I don't want to walk in this world anymore if you're not here holding my hand,
If I could wish for one last thing, it would be to have you again at our first dance,
Every time I try to breathe, there's a lump in my throat,
It was like you were here today and gone tomorrow.

It's killing me that I don't feel your love,
Without my smile, I'm just feeling numb,
I'm closer to heaven,
Don't make me wait,
I live for my smile,
It let's me know I'm still alive,
If I don't have that, the stairs I'll climb,
I'm close...