im not who I used to be

I'm not who I used to be
this is not the future I envisioned for me
I'm not living how I want to
but I'm living
things don't go the way I want them to
but I cope
I try to focus
on what i can do
And I've stopped mourning
what I can't
I refuse to dwell on the negatives
I won't let them drag me down
I shan't
My babies, my inspiration
you are my reason for breathing
You are my drive, my power, the secret behind me succeeding
You give me strength
When strength has gone
You give me hope
When i have none
with your faith
I could climb any mountain
With your strength
I could swim any sea
you will never understand
how much I love you
nor realise
how much I care
one thing I know for certain
without you
I'd lose my reason to be here
So thank you God, for
blessing me
and giving me everything I need
Now hold my hand and let's do battle
with you beside me
I know i can now succeed