I'm so tired

I'm tired of being trapped in my own mind,
Tired of all the falsehoods and lies,
Life is just another damn game,
Winners and losers,
I feel like I'm just another trophy to polish,
But just sit there like a piece of junk.
Hollow heart,
Made of glass,
Sworn to smile,
I can see its warmth,
But never able to feel it,
Those hailstones pound mercilessly against me,
A shield always slipping away from me,
I watch as floods of emotion sweep away any barriers,
I watch my world burn beside me.
But its alright,
She is still smiling,
She cant possibly be in pain if she smiles like that,
She is just another smile in a sea of faces,
Another trophy to polish.
Another laugh to hear,
One more tear to ignore.