I’m sorry

I’m sorry I haven’t been 
there when you really 
needed me.
I’m sorry if I let you down 
I just wasn’t being 
me.
I try I really do but, 
never succeed,
feels like it’s unnecessary 
a caution called
me.
I wish I could bring out
all the happy to evaporate 
the sad that sucks out
the best part of me,
without you I’m not 
me I can’t see …

~Deb