I'm trying to be strong

I cry myself to sleep every night,
You tell me to look at the side that should be bright.
But for me there is no bright side,
My mind just told me you lied.
Iām really trying to be happy,
But I cant help stop feeling so crappie.
I donāt want to be depressed,
Iām really doing my best,
Its just too hard to be strong,
But in my mind, everythingās wrong.
I can fake a smile,
But thatās only for a while.
Sometimes it takes too much energy,
Because my mind is my worst enemy.
Iāve tried to fight it,
But itās something I canāt hit.
Want to be a normal teen,
But I donāt even know what that mean.
Iām fighting my mind,
But I canāt fight something I canāt find.
I need to be better,
Cause Iām afraid Iāll write the letter.
But Iām going to be strong.
Until nothing is wrong.
is wrong.

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Comments
Wow, sounds like a massive internal battle. It's hard to trust when the walls of Trust City have broken down. I always put myself in the position of the one who also breaks people's trust from time to time. Once the damage is done, without help from a higher power, neither the victim nor the perpetrator can rebuild that wall without divine help.Ā
yeah exactly. it's nice that somebody understand. thanks for the comment, i really appreciate it :)
Inner turmoil is difficult to cope with. Teenage years are often filled with angst of some kind or another. It is good that you can write about it, and so eloquently too. Have faith that things do get better eventually x