In chains in my mind

even though tears soothe
my heart feels heavy
my mind is in a dark place
I feel no joy

I want to hide
to flee myself
to turn back time 
I want my fantasy 
to relive my dreams 
to feel happy

it wont happen
time has passed by
leaving me wanting and needing
causing me to be all alone

no one can help 
no one can heal me
im swimming in misery
no chance to be set free

maybe one day 
I will feel the need to move on
to break free from my past 
to grasp everything anew
till then
I wont be free
Free from me