Incarcerated within this body

17/05/2021
Incarcerated within this forsaken body
 
Burning furies inside of me.
Scorching from the inside out.
Just like rocks from hell.
These cancerous tumours inside of me,
Need to leave,
No doubt.
They,
Like the rest of me,
Are Incarcerated within this forsaken body.
Limbo hanging over my head.
Round and round like a roundabout.
Not sure of which turn,
Or exit to take.
Not knowing which one,
Is the correct one out.
Every year,
Degenerating,
Is what this vessel is all about.
Every second of every day,
Regenerating,
Hoping.
No more cancer in this vessel,
As I battle its Redoubt.
Flanking every angle,
Cancer destroying,
My whole vessel,
Throughout.

Mini Nuclear blasts,
couldn’t stop my cancer in its tracks,
No amount of fasts,
Would bring my pre cancerous life back.
21 years its chipped away at my life,
My soul.
21 years I’ve been given strife,
Way beyond my own control.
21 years of not knowing whether I’ll wake the next day.
21 years in limbo.
21 years of looking.over my shoulder,
And behind every single silver lining,
You’ll see my fighting proud rainbow.
Seeing as my life has seen tears like rivers,
And smiles as strong and as radiant as our bright sun glows.
So all I need is happiness from every angle,
No more sadness from the shadows.
Incarcerated but not beaten.
Incinerated yet still I’m living.
Still laughing and smiling,
No matter what badness,
At this vessel is thrown.
I’ll stand tall and defeat anything.
As I’ve a strong will power,
That is now fully grown!