insane lock

Gun to my head another day that was terrible, pains in my mind they become so unbearable, pain shocks, if only I could make my brain stop, same spot, Pain got a hold on me with an insane lock, no key, no me, I can never go free, all these voices in my head how do I feel so lonely, my thoughts are so horrendous, they have me defenseless, flashbacks come with a vengeance, and squeeze every thought out of me until I’m senseless, it leaves me tormented, I can not see it getting better thru these lenses, I’m at the register trying to buy time but it’s way to expensive, I’m dealing with the consequences,