Before Insanity

Sweetness is always followed with a bitter ending, for everything that ends has a mere beginning.

Restless hours spent on the phone all night, when promises were actually important.

When love wasn't tossed around as a slight endorsement,

When hugs actually meant that I'll always be there,

And Phone calls symbol I'm always near.

When kisses were sweet with just the thought, before you no longer seek, for you have sought.

Time doesn't change us, our mindset does

Like empty kisses, and limited hugs

Like people in our ear trying to make it clear,

But why explain, what's understood here

Like why question what's clearly not broken, and why mistreat what's not closed but open

Sometimes I still don't understand, when you say a man will be a man

But the man I gave my all to, once head over hills

Remember " I'll never hurt you ", I never questioned you will

Remember the promises that were made, and the long summer days,

the " I can't live without you", and you put our love a stake,

To prove to someone What was already proven? And you question me of thinking that leaving......

forgiveness is one thing but to continue blindly, no meaning.

Nights I'm not use to, silent cries, my pillow wet right after dry, restless nights but not caused by you.

Of what you've become, I'm not accustomed too,

After you've realized it's far to late.

The damage is done, as you plead your case

Anger causes many to do things,

I will not hold anger responsible for this vanity, this is before my plea,

pleas of insanity

Out of my mind I question myself,

I hate me, for doing something I had no control over,

like entering a party with all intentions of sober,

Like putting you above my morals, and past my better judgment to save what I needed then all of a sudden,

You opened my eyes that nothing last forever,

There will always be rainy and stormy weathers,

And no one is obligated to do anything without commitment

so, I forgive you, if I said that I didn't

I'll never trust another, Aside my Unconscious vanity

Aside stands, Reassuring Insanity