Inside My Memories

They say
Keep your memories
But they don't know,
They couldn't see
What was happening

It seems
Like everything
That's hurting me
Is my fault..

I woke up this morning
And took a shower
Calling myself the ugliest flower
Just telling myself
What others do

I cried the night before
To the point
I had tears, no more

Why did I
Get so hurt by
What others would say
I guess I'm used to
Waking up every day
As the ugliest one out there

It seemed like no one cared
So I stopped eating
Got sick, had a tube
For feeding

No one was concerned
So there was never a meeting
Exept for the ones
I was in trouble for
Where I was the victim
With my blood on the floor

Don't ask me how I'm still alive,
Because I honestly don't know
Don't ask me how I survived
Because I won't show,

The scars that broke me...

I am caught in my memories
The thing is
That I refuse to let you see
Because you'll only judge me

I've been the saddest you can imagine
And worse
I've gotten angry many times
And I burst

For some dumb reason
I can't get em outta my head
I have a problem
With what they've said

I'm caught inside my memories
And no matter what I say
No one will understand me...

I finally gave up,
I don't really know
Someone's love

My God tore me
From above

I woke up sometime today
Hearing how I'm so ugly
I woke up today
Inside my memories..