Inside out

I wish that I could
Cut my skin
So that words could pour out
Like warm blood

Maybe you’d finally 
Understand 
How Human I am
When I am shattered 
Like a disturbed mirror 
My insides will
Tell you the story
Of how my world 
Really is

Maybe you’d understand me 

When I dig my nails
Into my chest 
And rip my heart out
While it still beats

Unplugging the veins
As the world stares at me 
Like I’ve gone insane
I’m not going crazy 
I’m just letting you see
Since to you a failure
Is all I’ll ever be

Blinded to my efforts 
Only God seems to see
I’ll seal my lips
And hide my feelings in history