~Institutionalized~

I am depression and despair 

I will walk you through 

My tragedy of insanity 

Of being institutionalized 

Diagnosed with a sickness 

Doctors don't even understand 

They believe in a remedy 

That steals your sanity 

Taking away your humanity

Pumping you with Anti-psychotic drugs 

Drowning your will to be 

And smashing your thoughts 

Leaving you empty and dead 

Locked in a padded room 

Electric stimulus to erase 

The painful memories 

They say it will release 

All my torment in my head 

But they are wrong your empty instead 

And your strapped to a bed 

Tears gently fall and your 

Wishing you were dead 

All alone in this misery 

In my dark room of gloom 

And dying each day 

Never giving up I escaped that place 

I have been running and hiding 

For 10 years been self-medicating 

I vowed never will they commit me again 

I made a crucial mistake walking 

Into a Mental health facility 

Seeking treatment for my depression again 

And now they are trying to commit me 

And institutionalize me for expressing 

My dark days and depression 

Has swallowed me up 

Filling the pages of my despair 

And they said I was not well 

I know it's bullshit they just want control 

And to be their lab rat and test 

New drugs they say quiets 

The demons screaming inside my head 

I will never go back to that hell again 

I will resort to cutting 

Just to relieve my pain within

I would rather bleed 

Than to be left empty and dead. 

?Broken187Soul ?

Copyright 09-23-16