Is my world unravelling around me

Unravelling around me.
My life is like a ball of wool,
Each stitch that's sewn onto my patchwork life uses just that little bit extra more.
Each hole the needle punches and rips through,
Some things make it some destroy you.
I can't just stand back and have it all unravel around me...
I'd be tied into knots with nobody to free me,
Entwined in my patchwork life.
I can't let the last thread shred,
I'm better off alive than dead...
Give me the suffering and give me the pain,
I'll take that if it's seeing my kids life I gain...
Don't let it break,
I'm not ready to go,
I've so many plans that even I don't know.....
So don't take me now,
I refuse to lose,
Take me when I'm old and battered,
Not young and bruised.
For now I can take the pain.
Ok my days and nights will never be the same but at least on this planet my kids are here to keep me sane....
I'm not religious so don't know where I'll go,
I'm really hoping there's really no such place as living in constant limbo.
I fear not being able to see my children.
Not being able to see them grow.
I fear not being able to hold my children,
Hold them tight with the love I show.
I hope i will be there either ethereal or somewhere to see them through the hard times and the good.
I Want to see them grow and spawn triple mes',
To enter adulthood and show them life's ways...
For now I can just take each day as it comes,
as I always do,
To treasure and cherish every moment I have with my little gateways to happiness.