It hurts

Her eyes were brown
Staring straight at me as if i was an alien to her
I didnt mean much to her nor she did to me
She sat there laughing as if i was some sort of comedian entertaining her
But no i was crying from the pain she caused
Tears rolling down my cheek slowly
Then thoughts overpowered my head which made tears roll down my cheeks at a faster pace
It was endless
It felt like she ripped my heart out of my chest
Painful
She didnt know what i was going through
I didnt want to waste my time explaining it as she wouldnt listen
 she couldnt care less about me
She was to concerned about herself
She always was
And always will be
I wish
I wish
I wish
We never were friends
I wouldnt have blamed myself for all this
She caused me so much convulsion 
She caused me so much distress
She caused me so much hurt
I cant explain to anyone how much its wounded me
How much its affected me
Its like im a totally different person now
Ive changed in a defected way
It hurts
It hurts
It hurts knowing all this now
Its bruised me
Its blackened my heart
Full of woe
Full of agony
Full of torment