Janet

20 year later i still feel the guilt
An emotional cancer to make the soul wilt
A constant companion throughout the years
That eats at the soul, all though long dry are the tears
I wish you could of met the man i am now
And not that vile, vindictive clown
Mental illness is no excuse
For the emotional pain and the mental abuse
I hope your life is good, i have heard your doing alright.
That you married now and have children in your life
I know that you must be a fantastic mum
And i wish you nothing but joy in the years to come.
I just wish i had not acted the way i had
And things had not turned out so bad
I wish i could take the young me and give him a shake
And make him understand the consequence of the action he takes
Maybe then i wouldn’t feel this way
Maybe then we could of been friends some day.
Of course none of that will happen and quite right
You cant turn back the clock with the benefit of hindsight.