Joyriding

I can not show joy
as soon as my heart buds
someone steps forth
with secateurs..
I must keep it inside
when I flood
so the miserable entities
dont detect a spark
of happy
I can never be loved..
I have that rainbow
gravity that reveals
how I feel.
it's a radar for misery
and I dont want
to explain anymore...
those who haven't a clue..
my face tells lies
that's all you
need to know