Just Once

i’m jealous of  your pillows and of your sheets

because i want to hear the sound of  your heartbeat.

I want to fall asleep to the 76 beat per minute metronome.

you got my brain like a fermata on hold

but I want to fall asleep next to you 100 times a night

so I can know you 100 times better by daylight.

But at the same time, so does he.

and maybe that’s just the way things should be.

and I see the way you smile when you think of him.

he can take away all your problems on a whim.

and I am jealous.

Jealous of how zealous you get over him.

and I am not saying that it’s a bad thing.

I think it’s great.

But still your personality godes me like bait.

and just like fish in the water

or a fly near a swatter.

You tempt me, and I am cautious.

But your beauty still makes me nauseous.

And I guess I really don’t know if he feels the same way.

I don’t know the sort of things he will say.

I’d like to believe he says the same things I would.

That he is always here for you. That your smile is on the list of things to look forward to.

and I am jealous

Jealous of how he get’s to miss you.

and girl, I know you said not to wait

but you also said you felt something too.

Youre the only one to make me feel

less tough, less rough, more smiles, more feels,

less sad, less mad, more Life appeal.

My motto has always been “Half as long, Twice as bright.”

But you make me wanna grow old just watching the sunlight.

With a cup of coffee in one hand you in the other.

You are somebody I just want to smother.

and I know this is a cliche thought, but call me a romantic.

but a kiss has given answers meeting that of something mantic.

I want you to know how I feel.

How my affection was something for you to steal

So, romantic me has an idea for you,

forget about him, just for a moment or two,

pretend it’s just me, me and you,

and please,

just once,

let me kiss you.