Just Trying to feel Complete

I smell my spirit in the air

Inhaling the strong aroma as I break it apart
What's wrong with me?
What's wrong with me?
Nothing I'm just trying to feel complete
Grinding my spirit up so I can smoke it away
Break it down to tiny pieces so I can roll it and I say...
What's wrong with me?
What's wrong with me?
Nothing I'm just trying to feel complete
Roll my spirit 
Roll my spirit so I can smoke it away
Spread it on my papers make sure I leave nothing to waste
Roll my spirit
Roll my spirit lick it closed so I can fire it in flames
And sit back and just think...
What's wrong with me? 
What's wrong with me?
Nothing I'm just trying to feel complete
Hold my spirit in my hand and the lighter in the other
Hold my spirit a little closer as I fire it at the end
Burn slow
Burn slow or 
Burn fast
Burn fast
Sometimes I wanna feel it
Sometimes I wanna quit it
Watch my spirit set fire
Watch my spirit set fire
Inhaling every puff because I'm striving to get higher
To get higher
To get higher
Because I'm feeling mighty low
Thinking fast
Thinking fast
But I'm moving really slow
And really truly really who wants to smoke their spirit a float? 
I just wanna sit on the dock of the bay and go away on a boat
To a place where no one would ever know
Just me, myself, my spirit, and my soul
But I come back to reality
It's only me and my insanity
All I have is my dignity and  that's slowly going away
What's wrong with me?
What's wrong with me?
Nothing I'm just trying to feel complete
So high
So high
Starting to think odd like 
Is my body really my body? and does it really belong to God?
And if it does can he save me before I start destroying it all
Cuz every time I get a little taste to start wanting to feel alive 
I take my spirit grind it up so I can blow it in the sky 
And once again every time 
I start thinking...
What's wrong with me?
What's wrong with me?
Nothing I'm just trying to feel complete
But who's truly on my side when it comes down to this
I can only name one entity 
And I really don't want him to be into me
But he's the one who started me the one who started coaching me
Whispering
All the bad things that seemed good to me
Only because it was temporary
But my high felt forever
Only in the moment 
Tell I felt it going down
And my spirit going with it
And my inner demons coming out telling me that they're with me and it's worth it...
But is it working? 
But only if I knew from the start that this is probably the last of me
What's wrong with me?
What's wrong with me?
Nothing I'm just trying to feel complete 
I know I didn't sign up for this 
Especially when I'm not feeling human
I feel like a body shaped demon every time I take a puff
But in the moment I could care less or give two fucks
Roll my spirit 
Roll my spirit so I can smoke it away
Spread it on my papers make sure I leave nothing to waste
Roll my spirit 
Roll my spirit lick it closed so I can fire it in flames and sit back and just think...
What's wrong with me?
What's wrong with me?
Nothing I'm trying to feel complete
Let me be
Let me be
Let my spirit be with me
If not let the Lord take it
Cuz God knows how much I've tortured it
How much I've scorched it
I've scratched it
I act like it's not made of glass
How much I tried to treat it like it's precious
But I was nonresistant 
I always go back to...
Watch my spirit set fire
Watch my spirit set fire
Inhaling every puff because I'm striving to get higher
To get higher
To get higher
Because I'm feeling mighty low
Thinking fast
Thinking fast but I'm moving really slow
And really truly really who wants to smoke their spirit a float?...