Kinetic thinking

I struggle hard to give my best
Work so hard without much rest
It's a thankless task at best
With thoughts flying around my head
Like kinetic energy it creates energy
By thoughts striking off each other randomly
I then try to filer out what's reality
From all of the domesticated illusory
I seek the wisdom and intellectuality
In a way that makes common sense to me
I am not an academic so it's hard for me
Just an ordinary person who chooses to believe
In living life in conscious spiritual reality.