Knot my time...

Everything
Seems so loose
Except this
Hanging noose
I wish
I was
Stronger
But my
Other side
Says get
This rope
Even shorter
I just want
To see him
I won't
Disappoint him
I'd like
To do
Whatever
I say
I'd like
To have
A
Beautiful day
But it's
Never
The same
Anymore
There's things
Wrong
With me
That runs
Deeper than
The earths
Core
I wish
I could
Open my eyes
And see
But if I do
I'd feel that
Its not the
Way it
Should be
He said
I was a
Bad influence
He said
I had a
Guilty conscience
I just
Want to
See him
I won't
Disappoint him
Why do
I have
Second thoughts?
Sitting down
In the
Attic
Writing
This message
To you all
This revelation
Is making
Me feel so
Ecstatic!