Last day

I don't really know what to say 
Tis never a peaceful day
enclosed by my fear
surrounded in tears
but no emotion to show
or else someone might know
because i know im not enough
and really im not that tough
and these are the things which replay
which is why my head i must lay
into a permanent rest
which is preferred to this constant test
known as life
who bears the ugly knife
the weapon to fate
and our fears is its mate
til it is too late
we can take no more
and through the inevitable door
we must go 
and God we entrust with our soul