let me go

Let me go...
Just please let me go
I struggle to escape your grasp but
Your hard grips on my body are strong and do nothing but hurt me.
Some how I manage to get free and still you reach after me
Let me go
Just please let me go 
Let me disappear and vanish into the dark
As I run towards it I hear my name louder and clearer
I look back as you chase me into the dark with confusion written all over your faces
I see something glimmer in the pitch of dark
As I get closer I realize it’s my savior from all this misery 
I pick it up In the midst of running 
I reach a dead end while you’re inching in closer 
The only thing there is a head light hanging above so you all can see my face with tears running down as you’re standing a few feet away
This is it this my moment to shut up all up
Maybe this time you’ll all understand that the meds you wanted me to take made me feel like  someone who just wasn’t me 
Those therapy sessions I maneuvered through them so well I had everyone fooled and not one person noticed 
This is my moment and don’t you dare call me crazy  or try and take it from me
This is my moment to let it all go 
The hurt
The pain 
The emptiness 
The pretending
The loneliness 
As I speak everyone is stunned as if this was all knew as if I hadn’t left bread crumbs for years
Blade in my hand ready for the kill
We stare at each other speechless
And before anyone can do anything 
The blade in my hand has gone from left to right
I drop to my knees and look down and see blood spewing and as crazy and twisted as it sounds a small smile forms on my lips
They lay me down I hear screams all around
While they try to stop the bleeding and save me
Just let me go I want to go
And as the life in my eyes start to disappear 
If you look closely at my face you can see the content on it with a faint smile
I’m finally at peace
And it’s heartbreaking that it took all of this for me to fine the peace I’ve been searching for my entire life.