Let's go deep

At times, my thoughts run so deep
I wonder if I had my father what type of person I would be?
What caused loyalty to be so rooted down in me?
It is those who love hard that often receive no reciprocity
Why is it that opposites attract?
Well, if that's true, life will always be off track 
Hate we'll chase and love we'll reject
At times, in this world, I feel rather small
At other times, I feel tall
Walking upright because even if they push me, I won't fall
Stand for something or fall for anything is what I was told
But then I got old-er
Not sure about wiser
Wider, for sure
But then I realized
That's the way it goes
Just like the body
The brain widens with material
Sometimes helpful
Sometimes toxic
The only way to rid yourself
Is to cleanse yourself
Detox from a brain wash
Free yourself of the hogwash
So now, I've hit reset
Getting my body back
I was never fat, I just had fat
I was never really thinking
I was programmed to do that
Or maybe I wanted to be on destruction's track
I didn't know my worth
Thought nice things meant value
But they always made me feel worth-less
Which proves again
Opposites attract
Either way, I'm trying to get back on track
Find the true meaning of life
While I still have a shot at life
Because you get one try from the free throw line
Or maybe not
Because I don't know anything about basketball
But I know one thing
I have big dreams
And as long as I'm breathing
I'll forever be believing that
If God is for me
I'll change the world before I leave here

YRS