letting go by Cee

How can I let go of someone that I'm attracted to? I spent years holding on wishing, hoping, and dreaming, that the things that I wanted from you will come true. In reality I'm holding onto a hope a dream that's never gonna come true. Sometimes I'm lost and I don't know what to do without you. Sometimes I question why did I stick around for so long? I knew I should've let go. I knew I should've walked away, but leaving felt so wrong. Every night I cried my cries was my own song. My past hurt, but no one knows because I smile. I went searching for love from my parents in a relationship with you, but you couldn't love me the way that I need to be loved in the pain I got from hanging on was something I couldn't go through. You told me multiple times you couldn't love me, but I didn't want to believe what you were telling me was true. I still stuck around having hopes that maybe things will change but as I kept holding on things started to become strange, I try to visualize you as a guy that I wanted you to be but the whole time you wanted me to see that you were trying to set me free. Instead of accepting him for who he was that led to me having multiple heart breaks because I couldn't accept what he does. Every time I told myself I was trying to run I couldn't actually leave so I went back to him if it was like fighting the ocean waves trying to swim. Again and again, and again, I broke my own heart, but I should've known that I need to leave have some time apart. I questioned God why? why do I always got to go through this, but this was a lesson that God was teaching me that I miss. Maybe God is telling me that I need to let go but I wanted to stay and stick around and just go with the flow, but may be all good things come to an end like our favorite show but somethings that's not good for each other. Oh God will let us know. God will continue to make it hurt until we let it go.