Life on the dole.

I have been unemployed for quite some time.

Initially i thought it was all going to be fine.

I have picked up a few bits and bob's,

odds and sods, small job's.

Its ok for a little while, until the debt letters start to stock pile.

Then the realization kick's in that your living with nout.

know way out and nothing left to talk about.

Its like being a lonely little mole.

Digging yourself a never ending hole.

Wondering how to start achieving your goal.

Surely what's required is to get back on the pay role.

Not accept the fact that i am to young to be retired, and no longer desired.

Its all my fault i am in this situation.

I should have stuck in at school, instead of trying to be cool.

Might have made graduation.

Rather than reflecting on the realization that i didn't, and i am only a mason.

Thinking about the life that i have not really enjoyed.

It only makes me annoyed.

The sense of under achievement, and negative thought's that feel like bereavement.