Live for the now

Sometimes we laugh sometimes we cry sometimes we don’t wanna say goodbye. Sometimes we sit and think why oh why did I leave those dishes in the sink. I had to sit down with myself and think. Why do we laugh why do we cry I don’t have any memories of why. I definitely don’t want to die. As I lay here and cry looking up at the sky. When will I get the chance to fly. When I stop getting myself so high. You can see by the look in my eye. I’m far away living a lie. I can’t even ask myself why. When did I actually wanna live a life of getting high and having to lie why oh why. That’s why it’s time to say goodbye