just living the dream

I sit in the family room
struggling with the tv remote
my husband fixes it 
in a hearbeat giving me 
a superior smile.
then the dog walks through
the house with muddy paws.
My young son needs
his diaper changed.
I am ready to weep
I want a vacation
no chidren a kiss
someone to say
its all going to be alright.
or even just
I love you honey.

But there are moments
when I catch my reflection
in a store window
in front of the superior manequins.
with size zero figures.
I see the wind blowing in my hair
the real woman who I want to be
her smile is magical 
she is awesome. 
I wave back at her
and whisper
I remember you honey.