Lost and forgotten...

I wish to drown in the waters of nothing,
Lost and forgotten, i’m rotting away,
And all of these lies are constantly raping,
Frail and ill-gotten, stay comforting pain.
It seems the roles in this world have been reversed,
Forever I’m lost in icy cold rain,
I am not worth my weight in this verse,
For I have no kin, dying with the day.

This body you see is an empty shell
And I will feel better when I’m burning in hell,
Walking, waiting in a desolate fell,
Lost and forgotten forever, oh well.
Exiled for my feelings of hate,
My ‘Suicidium’ thoughts contemplate,
I do not deny this horrible fate,
Darkness overcomes this hour of late.

Infatuated with this morbid disease,
Scared to be alone, mono phobia,
Shall I take a knife to score this flesh with ease,
Sharpen with a stone, continue to bleed.
Never ending self hatred, I want to die,
My life is worthless, death is all i need,
Stricken with this lethargy I sob and cry,
I am a dark drone, melancholia.

Grim reaper i give you my soul to take,
Never I want my body to awake,
Often I was told that I’m a mistake,
Oh I want to drowned myself in a lake.
Forget-Me-Nots, I see in the Shadow,
They sway in the wind next to a meadow,
Reminding me of infinite sorrow,
Hoping I won’t live to see tomorrow.

Lost and forgotten forever,
None shall remember my name,
The ties to this world I sever,
None shall know this horrible bane.
Take this soul that was once clever,
And leave me in freezing rain,
I know that you will never feel my plight this eternal pain…

Nothing awaits me in the afterlife