Lost and found

14/09/2020
Lost and found...

Am I coming or going,
I can barely decide,
No matter how much is thrown at me,
Is it the beginning or ending,
 of my life timeline?
Even My body,
Heart and mind,
Let alone my soul,
Can’t come together,
And in strength bind,
As my eventual fate,
 is out of,
Even their control.

I was once lost,
But now I’ve been found,
Not by anyone else,
But me,
with my feet firmly on the ground.
Realising that I’ve served my purpose,
Just by letting my message,
Being spread around.
I know I won’t be here forever,
But i’ll stay for maybe 10,
But hopefully not,
Just 1 more round.
Although for my kids,
Family and friends,
I wish i was forever and eternally earth bound! 

Taking each day as it comes, 
Riding each wave,
That my vessel succumbs.
Changing the rudder slightly,
To make sure I stay on fates right path,
As don’t want to be pushed away,
To be lead down one,
 with no smiles,
Not even a single laugh.
I want to be lead down the one,
That’s right for this vessel,
That’s right for this raft.
I’m just about keeping afloat,
As was sinking slow,
But now the flow is too fast,
As I’m taking on so much water,
I don’t know how long I can keep up,
How much longer will my vessel last?

I’ve people all around me,
Thinking I’ve given up,
Will power and all.
Lucky I’m the type of guy,
That sees a glass not half empty,
But half full.
I’m doing as I’ve always done,
And attacking my cancer,
 Like That,
Of a raging bull!
So I’m not being pessimistic,
Just thinking realistically is all.
Realistically realising,
That I’ve possibly not got long left,
But will fight it with optimism,
Like I always have done,
 and always will.
Fate likes throwing me a curve ball,
But it will have to try harder,
To make me,
From Grace,
Fall.
As I’ve got more fight in me,
I’m ready for the next brawl.
All takes the winner,
Where as the loser will be floored,
I plan to see another day,
No more cancer anymore. 
So I’ll come out fighting,
Using all my strength,
That for the past 20 years I’ve stored
And I’ll forever continue,
Till my cancer's in my body no more!