Lost From Me

I TRY TO FIGHT OFF THESE FEELINGS OF LONLINESS...
AT THE SAME TIME FACED WITH THE CRITICISM OF OPENNESS...
IT HURTS ME NOT TO BE ABLE TO SPEAK ON THESE STRESSORS...
WHILE FEELING LIKE I AM DROWNING UNDER PRESSURE...
I DON'T WANT TO SEEM WEAK BUT I HAVE TO LET IT OUT SOME WAY...
CAUSING MYSELF MORE PAIN IS SOMETHING I CAN'T SHAKE...
I NEED TO BE ALONE...
AND SOMEHOW FIGHT THESE DEMONS ON MY OWN...
TRYING TO SEARCH FOR THE HELP OF OTHERS...
ONLY OPENS ME UP FOR MORE PAIN FROM ANOTHER...
I AM LOST AND DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHY...
TRAPPED IN MY OWN THOUGHTS WHICH HAVE CREATED A DISGUISE...
PLEASE I NEED SAVE FROM MYSELF...
OR MAYBE I NEED SAVED FROM EVERYONE ELSE...
I DONT KNOW THE OUTCOME AND PRETTY MUCH DON'T CARE...
BEING AFRAID I CAN'T FATHOM AND I HAVE EMBRACED THESE DEMONS I NO LONGER FEAR...