Lost but Trapped

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I closed my eyes,
When darkness falls,
It hurts as I have frozen legs in winter,
Toes as stiff as concrete,
My eyes are drowning in tears,
My heart is dying in sorrow,
My brain is drifting in illusion
When I close my eyes, confusion
Irritates my imagination
Every day I die piece by piece
Why did I let myself fall for this guy?
I thought he was a dream in my teen ages
But it looks like a nightmare so scary
It looks like a berry
But it’s as sore as ginger
When I first saw you,
I never thought I would like you
You just knew what my heart needs
You saw right through me
But at the end my heart sings to the
Pattern of the cynic and a violin
You grew an unforgettable seed
Just like a malware I will need
Therapy for this virus,
You’re a bane in this heart
I just want to go to you.
Look straight into your eyes
And ask you who are you?
Is this the guy I once spoke to?
Your history isn’t
Funny, it is not easy to believe
When I look at you, it’s difficult
Enough to make a protocol
Wherever you go I will always, always have
A soft spot,
You’re the first perfect gentleman
I have, you’re really special even though
I hardly know you.
  Now I'm lost in my emotions.