Love me

"if I speak my truth will you speak how much of it you consumed”
because it's consuming me”
And my darkness is running “
thru light’  and back to night”
confused of death or life”
but different unlike before”
I would stop by choice”  
now it just happens,
I don't know why”
but i see it when it happens”
I'm a passenger”
But whose driving,
headed towards the west quest” everyone says it's a mess.”
around sense and understanding
I walk alone”
but my heart lushes
out a sent of more”
. Hides the feeling of alone”
So like ice cream in cone i hold on
and don't let go”
how do I explained
with no word”
Or tell you without voice”
 why can't I read off  a blank imaginary sheet”
why won't that become real”
right now it would be ideal”.  
I even use the i  have no more reasons”
so I'm out of religion”
and without a vision”
but how"
if I had planned,
a lifetime mission".
And rounds put in
that prove my submission”
and give me a right of permission”  that turn into a now I'm wishing"