Lust

I hear my name in the wind
As it blows through the leaves
It gives me chills 
But feeds my urge to leave
The possibilities are the only thing slowing me
While fear of failure continually haunts me
Consequently things aren't going my way 
Other than this distance that i've been longing
Nothing feels better than this
Work in the am, dream and write in the pm
Am I foolish 
I grip my pen as if it were her
Honestly i'm hurting
But I cant turn back
Because I know that would hurt worse
Some say in pain is the disappearance of weakness
But first i'm a disappear
I need to focus on my future
Could have been ours, but...
Too much damage has been done
So my wounds I am nursing
Before infection kicks in
I don't want to live in anger
Even though that's what turns you on
And I please you better
I can no longer proceed
Just to suffice all your needs 
While ignoring mine? please
Thought you had control
So you tried getting over 
Underestimating my insight
So I shot you down
But only out of defense
I only aim to injure
And here you come with this victim bullshit, your cold

(Your cold)
Colder than anyone i've known
And your beautiful
Your so bitter sweet

I felt like 
I could keep you warm
Until dry ice, you burned me
So we no longer speak

Fell for your image 
Before I got to know your story
I jumped the gun
And was hit by a few strays
Can blame no one but myself
That my heart was a causality
So know I question the placement of those around me
Benefits vs negatives
As I make out a checklist
I focus on my happiness
Despite contrary opinions 
Call me foolish for following my heart
I'd rather be a fool than to live blind
Wandering through life day and night
Because i'm scared of unequal odds 
Instead, I wear my pain as strength
And like medals I wear my scars
Just to show how far i've come
I dont hide my past 
They're my building blocks
The source of my energy
Without lust love couldn't exist 
I pray I know the difference
Because im so fed up with this bullshit

(Your cold)
Colder than anyone i've known
And your beautiful
Your so bitter sweet

I felt like 
I could keep you warm
Until dry ice, you burned me
So we no longer speak