Madness

I'm sinking into madness. 
It's the bottomless pit in the sea of despair. 
Saying "Long sleeves are just fashion"
Is saying "Please help me stop, please be there" 
It's getting really dark.
and I'm feeling rather hopeless. 
Nothing can save me now. 
If you only knew my wishes. 
To be free without judgement
To be happy without pain
to laugh with the rain 
and dance again and again each day. 
But these wishes seem futile 
at least to me they do
but for everyone else , I'm jealous 
Because they get there's come true.
I really need an end
to this bottomless pit
the darkness is making me sick
I feel around for a candle wick
I get cut real deep by a razor
Nothing! no, nothing gets better
Say Something! Please!
Before i give up on you!
Just a bunch of nothingness
Just an empty hole where there should be bliss
Just another day where i should be that, I should be this, but I'm not and that's where the blade comes in.
I've nothing else to say about this
 and thus let's part for different ways!